Suchh a mess

I sure wish i chould pretend,
i feel alive as my heart is. 
girls just never catch my drift,
Frm me, they're always departed.
I feel this life parents started,
Is one deprived as I'm hardened.
Not so sure what they started, 
This life ain't one that can't sharpen.
I've been depressed,
Minds departed.
I'm such a mess,
now a bar kid