anhedonia

i hate how apathy sets in so fast (now).
-traversing the epidermis
then slipping deep into the skin-
i barely have time to process
before the feelings have
committed mass suicide and

i
don't
f*****g
care.

i hate how apathy has become
my wall.
i cover myself in an empty shell
while this pressing hollow feeling
makes me want to scratch through
the skin
to prove i still bleed;
to prove

i
f*****g
care.


i hate how apathy waits complacently
in my chest, prepared
(at a moment's notice)
to activate emptiness
and shut down
all vessels to the
heart.

a word / a gesture / a thought
can trigger the reaction
and without warning
(or will)
anhedonia sets in
and

i
don't
f*****g
care.

i hate how apathy becomes truth.

i hate
how
i
don't
f*****g
care.
 

Reviews

[Barry S. Maltese]

profanity asside, it is a GREAT poem. I love how you show that apathy is overcoming you as you are writing the poem. The style you use is great, and your words get your point across so well. Great job.

[The Guerrilla Warhol]

this is so good.
not that you f*****g care.
haha that was corny.

"to activate emptiness"
chillssssss

[Jayne Gourgiotis]

Apathy is among my favorite words, but who f*****g cares anyway? I really like the rythem you have going here.

[Carlos Isaias Ruiz]

its very forward. apathy doesn't seem so apathetic. consuming, obsessed with apathy. what is? confusing, exciting, boring, exciting.

i can tell you it was pleasantly readable.

[Sarah Williams]

I truly enjoyed the rise and the fall of this piece...the way that the apathy grew, receded and then grew again toward the final culmination where realization and feeling collided. This was a very intense read, and you wrote it masterfully! Very nicely done!

[Particles Of Spirit]

Wow! I love this.

[Richard K]

Wow, Kara. I'm at a loss of words for this one. This is a feeling I've gotten very intimate with in the past, the pain of not feeling what you want to. It can take the smallest thing and defense sets in. It's up to us to know what's true in our hearts when all is said and done. I liked it albeit the angst. ;)