LIKE A CANDLE LIT MOON DEEP WITHIN A PERFECT DREAM!

My day's sad. Such a simple word but so much meaning behind it. Angry at myself because I'm the one who was blinded/

I met misery before, infact we were inseparable. Pain unmeasurable. Now again the pain ? Just PAIN!

I want to say you hurt me! Although I know I hurt myself! I knew you never loved me, I just did not want to believe myself! Love? That word! That feeling? I'm not even certain if it really ever touched me. 

What I remember is tears, pain and no sleep. No energy, no one, not even a means to eat! Just pieces everywhere, pieces of me! Drained from all existence, not wanting to exist, just sleep! 

Lost I tell myself but maybe I'm where I need to be, that place where clouds don't move, that peace. Uncomplicated me! The way I think, observe and breathe. No longer caring to search, look for or see. Moonlit, Star's still and oceans that scream for some reason the mere thought feels like heaven to me. 

You don't have to understand or even waste your time , I'm good alone and I'm content with time. Ease, suddenly ease! I been home long ago should of never tried to escape ME! 

#SilentPoet

Reviews

[ANTO]

My friend once said that his favourite of all the mental illnesses was LOVE. We do literally tear ourselves apart in the search and then in the trying to keep it. We lose ourselves and when its (or if) its over we have to adjust to life alone again but we are different because we changed ourselves to try to be someone that we werent. People who say they never changed in a relationship are either liars or deluded.
This is a heartbreaking piece of one's search for their Self. I've been there and most people here have or can sympathise with the plight.
I'm told writing will help heal - let's hope so.
More power to your pen SP

[silent poet]

Thank you so much Anto! I appreciate you sharing your insight. I completely agree with all you've written. I too hope it helps :) and actually your review gave me alot to think about. I so appreciate your words and your friend (mental illness) I can relate to how he put that. Thank you for reading and the review. I will definitely read your work

[ANTO]

theres no obligation at all SilentPoet - I read what I like and comment where poems speak to me. Thank you, though.

[silent poet]

Definitely not obligation.. :) with HOW you speak I am curious to read what's in your thoughts or feels.

[ANTO]

Okay thats sweet - thank you :)

[wordman]

i wonder why we seem to always make the wrong decisions on love
a great and touching write

[silent poet]

I think we wouldn't be human if we didn't:) but boy do I wish I'd stop wordman... thank you kindly!

[wordman]

you are welcome

[BLitZeD]

it was good . "Lost I tell myself but maybe I'm where I need to be, that place where clouds don't move, that peace. Uncomplicated me! The way I think, observe and breathe. No longer caring to search, look for or see. Moonlit, Star's still and oceans that scream for some reason the mere thought feels like heaven to me." i know exactly what you mean by thiat, i find humans interesting because they can relate to one another despite barely knowing the person. i feel like i know what happened in a painfull part of your life, you described the story very well

[silent poet]

I appreciate how you put that. I agree barely knowing someone but relating through circumstances, lessons, stories etc.. pieces of life. Thank you very much for the review and your time..

[Dion [MFMDM]]

Thank you for showing me I'm not alone . I feel the same honestly . I know others may .. but in this case I truly feel your words

[silent poet]

Thank you for taking the time to read my inner feels. And you're definitely not alone! :) To feel someone's words is as much of a gift as the one sharing! Thank you. Will be reading some of your work in the morning. Hope you have a goodnight Dion

[AaronFreitas]

Love is a strong word my friend... sometimes we get let down and disappointed. Being good and alone is tough... that is still the part I am trying to get used to. Good write my friend :)

[silent poet]

Aaron thank you, I appreciate the feedback and yes being good and alone is tough. I honestly feel I was there before until I made the mistake of thinking I was loved. Now again to find that content peace... Mornings are the hardest but I'll get there again. From my heart I hope you get there too 😊

[AaronFreitas]

Good luck... the struggle is always getting there :)