Way past it

dwelling

As Halloween passes/ i look back/ and can see way past this./
It used to be like/ lifes padded/ in innocence/ no such tragics/ in presence/ i live, I've had it/ kid fantasys/ wOuld all vast Me/ and memories that keep passing/ reminding me where I'm at.
        Growing up / growin fast/ nowhere near-in a spot imagined/ new fears attained/ now i have em/ same blood and veins, i got trapped in/ a bit less sane/ not contracting to/ feel their pain/ that has plateaued/
i feel the shame-that's/ impacted my brain/ it's gradual/ detouring my dreams/ too fragile/ and luring in things/ that crash thru/ like w****s and them phenes