Had me

Why do i have this soo bad?.
No one else understands.
painless/ yet pain i rant/ bout my life, and the missing grands/ and my greediness, with my plans/ am not pleading S**t/i demand/ i am needing it/ just to grab/ money blow it/then gone, get sad/ i dnt owe it/ but fakes all owe me/
got past "friends" / i dnt know lonely/ it's past tense/ my only homies/went past them/ now my minds growing/ it's past them/ they're stuck and smoking/ on asses/of cigerates that contrast them/all dependent/ and not havin/their own nice S**t/soo they'd stab me/all jealous b*****s/ now lack me/ won't give them stiches/ too past them/ enough time wasted/ they had me/ already placing my assets/ and I'm investing to have it/ they're all corresing/to have it/ but it's a shame they won't have S**t.