I'm doing

I'd like to think' I'm liVing my life.
But is this life?.../ i mean,, /i work everyday/ and dnt feel alive/ f*****g thrive/ and rules to abide /  its not seeming like/ its quite right/ but need to survive.
I see pain, in the peoples eyes, and the government, and denies/ how they cover S**t, and demise/ not to mention they're lies they tried / and keep acting like/ nun to hide/ but procastin, sayin they'll try/
drug highs lastin/ and on the rise/ flabbergasted a*s feelings lie/ get addicted and theres your life/ contradicted a*s feelings/ rely /
to say you can't feel this/ you lie/
i wanna just kill this/ and rise/ i wish i could seal this/ and thrive/ like why am i even alive?/
i pass thru the seasons deprived as f**k/ physically/  i think i am stuck/ mentally/ i do give a f**k/ history/ has its runner ups/ but for me/ couldn't give-up much/ gotta grab it, and gotta rush/ it takes time/,  but i cannot budge.

Maybe I'll die/ wishing , not doing/its fluent like that/ including/ hopes and dreams/ didn't do em/ wasn't a phene/ they ran thru me/... They stick around, cannot lose em/ they steal frm me/ f****n losers/ i can't avoid/ I'm a boozer /but its my choice, I'm so used to/ corrupted voids/ so they use me/ guess its my choice, cuz I'm doing.