Mentally wired

F*****g depressed./ is this the feeling, "depressed"?/ my motives/ slow den a b***h/ i sit here /feeling like S**t/ i get fears/ where i have been/ i get near/ do it again/  plus friends all/ leave me for them/ work hard/no money to spend../ depart/no money comes in/ I'm stuck/ and barely pay rent/ ........got luck cuz--.../

realized/how my life/ gets all like/ denied/ from they're thrive/ but alright/ deny/ from they're eyes/ cant realize/ demise/ runs our sights/ we feel like/ money will do right/then feel like/ we can live our lives/pay bills like/ money has a height, and its  so funny how we're tied/ mentally wired by they're lies/ plenty of liers who'd deny/ well it ain't funny../i despise.