Ugly Stains

i returned back to art, after far too long of inner criticism,
and the only thing i wanted to do right then was cry.
i felt the humiliating failure crawl up the surface as i stared at my lady in red, wondering why i’d even try.

the silence was deafening, defeating
i watch my hopes fall apart,
i stare at my fingers ugly stained in pastels,
the ugly had still whispered my art.

Reviews

[Emunah June.]

I think you have rather expertly conveyed a feeling that so many of us feel. Sometimes, when you take those breaks from your craft, getting back into it is probably the hardest thing you can do. I used to tell my mom "its like I left my bike in the rain and now my tires are rusted and its all my fault!", and thats what I get from this piece, is that same feeling.

But! Rest assured . . . art is a thing that is never really "wrong". when you think about it. Its how you approach it, how that inner universe is conveyed. Sometimes that is in the form of eloquence and beauty, and other times its sloppy and tumbles out, but its art nonetheless, and if you love it, then it is a thing worth loving.

All in all, I really enjoyed this piece, and hope you take some joy in knowing that we see nothing ugly about these stains --- to me, these are the beginnings of something great.

[Seren]

Thank you, Emunah June, for this incredibly thoughtful review!

It's truly comforting to know that this piece was able to convey that complex feeling of creative struggle and self-critigue. Thank you for reminding me that art is never "wrong" and that even the "sloppy" moments have value if you love the work. Your encouragement is exactly what I needed to hear. I'm so grateful you enjoyed this piece! :)

[emmajoygreen]

Sometimes we expect too much from 'Self', are too self-critical. Is unlike you to be so down - although it happens and - it's allowed. As always your words are finely laid. I truly hope by soon you'll find your smile again, Seren. Take great care.

[Seren]

Thank you emma! It's always lovely to hear from you :) Hugs and smiles

[emmajoygreen]

Hugs and smiles wished for you, dear friend.

[emmajoygreen]

Hoping you feel like the you that you know matters, dear friend. Hope that makes sense: life is too short to miss a moment's wonder at an Autumnal leaf twirling in the breeze! Let's laugh together at that thought and twirl too, yes?!

[Lara]

Sometimes "the ugly" needs to purge and flow, too, seren. I think you're quite right about that. ..

[Seren]

Thank you for being a safe space!
Sometimes just putting it out there really helps..