How.

At times you just want to do something so bad that it just drives you to do things that you would normally not do..I have had these times, have you?

I normally just want to sit in bed and do nothing.

Today something is burning in the back of my head.

I am hoping that you will text me and hope that you will finally ask to hang out today.

I have not talked to you at all though.

I am trying to keep myself busy, with out worrying myself to death.

I clean my room.

I redo my make up many, many times, until I find a new style.

I go through my clothes and get the ones I never wear out.

I clean the rest of the house.

I basicly do everything I can do to keep me busy.

I do not understand why I am wanting so bad to talk with you.

I just do.
Nothing you have ever done made me think "Wow, I really like this guy! I hope I never stop talking to him." but I guess I do need to talk to you.

I think maybe I should just stop talking to you.

I think this for a while, then I realize " I can let you go, so I am good."

I do not need you, but I still want you, should I give up on you?

I think I will, but I still can't.