Toxic For Me

Wrestling with one's own heart, resisting what it feels.

Darling, I think I'm gonna explode

It ain't right, it ain't good

But it happens, why - I don’t know

It is recursive, very often these days

Oh how I wish to get rid of it

What's the problem there, you ask?

It ain't a thing to get rid of, my love

It is the very heart I bear

The soul inside me

The brains I have and the thoughts in it

There's nothing I can do now

I am fighting a losing battle here

And I think I can't keep up, no more

All I am capable of, it seems, is watch -

Watch my whole world fall apart

Torn down to pieces, fragments so small

That I will hardly recognize.

It's high time I've had my leave

I could do nothing more

I'll watch myself ruining me

 

And after the war is over

I will be amidst the ruins

Waiting for you to come by

And I will whisper into your ears

That all my heart craved is for you