what do you do?

Please do not read this poem

 to talk bad about it I just 

needed to clear my head 

and only here I feel I need to express myself! (Note from Author)

What do you do when you have had enough

trying to figure out why you are so sad

feel mad at times just because you have

tried so hard but still it isnt enough

the tears I feel down my face

is the same tears I felt when I lost

my baby and still feel the hurt

I still feel the hurt

we tried for years and still nothings here

I read all the ways but still

empty inside wish I could 

wipe away my tears and never cry again

because just thinking about it 

Just rewinding it in my head 

trying to not cry 

trying to not cry

trying to not hurt

trying to just brush it off and keep on living

knowing that one day 

I will conceive again

I just wish it didnt take 

going through every month

hoping that u will come 

just to see that red devil

Show up 

realizing some day you will show

when that day comes I will know 

I will just know

the kicks in my stomach

heck the sickness is a comin 

getting wierd symptoms when your really 

not there gosh why does a 

womens body change 

when nothings there 

hope it changes soon

hope you'll come soon

hope to hear your cry

hope u dont die 

R.I.P my baby coming in July

now that you have gone 

I know its been so long

please send down 

your brother

please send down your sister

for now 

right now 

I feel like giving up 

waking up 

going to sleep

dreaming feels like a dream

with no sleep

wondering 

worrying

making my self sick

hoping

praying

that this pain will go away

no one knows what im going through

not a clue I'm not like you

I wish I knew if it was me or you

they said it was true

it might of been you

but how could this be 

if we conceived 

how could this be when I've seen

ok..

ok...

I'll go to sleep

Reviews

[j.]

beautiful! its so real and raw

[Shimae Parks]

Thank you for your review :)