Loving Hate

For you, this is my lust

After I gave all away my trust

I was broken and crushed to dust,

My iron heart gave in to rust.

I knew, when I asked you out

It'll be a wild ride to hell

I should have followed my doubt

I should have climbed up when i fell

Your pride that's always at peak

The endless happiness that you seek

It's rainin' curses when you speak

you always pretend that you're weak

You'll rather be angry than say sorry

You won't stop 'til i say 'ok, you beat me'

You hate the feeling when you're guilty

You even hate it when I ask you if you love me.

For those reasons my desire grew

I was hanging on but my heart blew

My dream to crush your wicked heart is starting to grow too.

Brace yourself because this is my lust to kill you.

For the first week I'll follow you without complain

Endure all the cruelty and pain

And when you feel that you imprisoned me again,

That is when your misery will begin

Earn your trust then fool you,

Start a date then leave you,

Organize a party with the ones that hate you,

Serve the food you hate most then surprise you.

And just to be clear, this ain't revenge,

This is just my lust that's so intense.

A lust to see your tears flow like rivers,

To see you cry 'til you freaking shiver

That feeling of adrenaline,

The blood rush as my heart pump

That moment when you can't hold it in

It's so good I got a goose bump

But I guess this will all be just a dream

Cause as much as I want to hear you scream

You know I can't do that cause we are a team

Just leave me vent out all my steam

And I know even though I got million reasons to leave you,

Somehow I still find a reason to love you

And for that I'll still be with you

Because I know I'll soon love the way you hate me too