A Line

As the candles burn,

I sit and yearn.

Yearn for a feeling of being loved,

For a togetherness sent from above.

I'm sitting here alone again,

Wondering why he didn't want to stay.

And why he always goes away,

Sometimes for a day at a time.

Everything he says seems like a line,

A line to keep me around.

A line to make me await his return.

Praying aimlessly for a future with him,

When I already know I won't win.

For reasons I cannot understand,

I know I'll never fully be loved by this man.

I always seem to lose,

I give my all and am abused.

So what do I do?

I just want to escape,

To go somewhere far away.

So my heart can't be broken anymore,

Where I can be at peace.

I am tired of being extra nice,

I just want to go to paradise.

Life is never easy or simple,

But can't I just be loved?

To feel him hold me while we sleep,

For him to share secrets I will keep.

I pray for a true everlasting love,

But doubt I'll ever see anything that perfect and pure.

If I find it how will I be sure?

I'm so tired of being alone,

Even to talk to him on the phone.

This would ease my fears,

This could stop my tears.

As the tears continue to roll down my cheek,

I realize never have I been this weak!

I am at a loss,

I need a real reason to stay.

Not just another line!

Reviews

[Reika]

This was really emotional.
I really liked the last part,
"I need a real reason to stay.
Not just another line!"
I feel you.
It reminded me of something one of my really close friends went through,
so I can almost relate.
Wonderfully written.

=)