Destiny of Solitude

Have you ever been in love?

I thought I was but it was just hope for a better future

So now I lay here alone

Filled with regret but still hoping and wishing that it actually exists

I want it to find me

I want it to embrace and consume me

But how will I know?

How will I know if it's found me

When it could easily be another illusion of hope?

I don't believe in god

Religion is a joke so why should I give in to this romantic fantasy?

Should I put on a smile?

They say the only way to get by is to fake it 'til you believe it yourself

Should I give in to the lie?

Or lose myself to the earth and pour another drink to my bad health

Is it a question of faith?

Or is it just me? Am I not worthy of the joy it could bring?

Could it be my fate?

Am I just meant to be a pawn for the progress of others' state?

They say that patience is a virtue

Patience is a virtue not easily acquired

Has it been long enough?

Or have I waited so long that my hope has all but expired

Is it enough to get me through?

Or am I just waiting for the inevitable, my destiny of solitude?

Should I play the fool?

Just pretend that there is hope and somehow I'll make it to the other side with a dream in my mind

And a fragile future in hand

Should I subject anyone else

To the foolish thought that they could build a life with me?

Should I give in to what is likely a myth for me?

Or should I accept my destiny?