Chapter 7: Take a deep breath.

 

Now I started realizing why the girls liked him so much. He was amazing. Well, he had a perfect smile that almost made me want to smile. But I didn’t. And as I was in deep thought about how amazing he was I suddenly felt a door open and saw that we were outside. I had no clue how we got out here. I need to start paying more attention to things.

 

We sat down in a little patch of flowers. It was farther away then I had sat earlier and he must of realized I like distance. I started realizing I didn’t hate him as much, but I still hated him.

 

It was silent for a few moments. Then he said, “you know, I heard you used to write songs and stuff, is that true?” I nodded my head.

“I also heard you like taking photos.” Another nod.

“I was also told you were a big fan of Twilight.” That paused me. I wasn’t just a fan, I was practically obsessed.

“And I heard your favorite actor ever is Taylor Lautner.” Shocker? I didn’t even have to nod. Everyone knew.

“I heard you don’t like needles.” Like them, I hate them.

“I heard you faint at the sight of blood.” Before, even when I was healthy, I’d die if I saw blood.

“So Harmony, going to keep your word?” And with that, I didn’t know what to think. Is it possible to speak? I tried earlier and couldn’t. What would I say, hello? Sounds easy.

I opened my mouth to speak, tried letting the words come out, but nothing came. I shut my mouth and tried again, and again, and again. Tears started coming to my eyes as I slowly felt defeat. Then my voice croaked. And I coughed, a lot. He tried soothing me by rubbing my back, and slowly the coughs disappeared. My eyes stung with tears and I tried one last time.

“H-he-hell-“ I gasped for air, then tried once more, “hello.” Finally. I felt a tear roll down my cheek and looked up at him. He was smiling, then frowning.

“You’re crying.” Obviously, he didn’t realize how hard it was to try saying hello.

“I’m okay.” I said in a shy, weak voice. I’d never sounded like this before.

He exhaled, and moved away from me. So, like I was doing before, I went into my calm position. I laid down and brought my feet up to my chest. I kept my eyes open looking at Dr. Lutz. He looked back at me.

“Dr. Lutz.” His attention came to me even more.

“Call me Tyler, and yes?” Tyler? Cute name. I had a crush on this kid Tyler where I used live.

“Nevermind.” I felt like telling him everything. Literally everything, but I couldn’t bear it. My heart was hurting from all the stress I’d put on it trying to speak.

 

I closed my eyes, and rested my head into the warm earth. Then something jumped into my vision and out again. I wanted to see this image again so I started to search the darkness within my closed eyelids. It popped up again, and as I watched everything came to life.

 

It showed this beautiful girl in a meadow. She was dancing in a gorgeous white summer dress. There were flowers all over and the meadow was surrounded by trees. The whole scenario was beautiful. Breathtaking even. Then she stopped jumping, and turned around. I saw the beautiful girl and was shocked once more. That girl was me. She was beautiful and thin, but not thin like me. She looked, healthy. Happy, and when she smiled my heart stopped. I wanted to be her more than ever.

 

But I wanted to stay this weight even more.