Painful Change.

I didn’t know much of what to say.

There were just too many questions, how long would it take? Would I still be me? Would I get fast and strong and beautiful? Would he remain to love me, even after I am like him? So I started with the hardest.

I peered out into the sky and watched the clouds pass by.

“Kellan.”

“Yes,” he stirred underneath me to look at me, but I just kept my face away.

“When my heart stops beating, how will I feel?”

“Good usually. You don’t feel much you just feel good.”

“Why just good? I mean like why wont I feel much.”

“You’ll feel good because you will have been in pain before then. You wont feel much, because you wont have time to think at the moment.”

“Pain? How much pain?” I pondered how harsh it would be so that I could live in an eternity with him.

“I’m not sure, matters how great your body is. If you have a strong heart it might fight back for the full seven days, if you are weak, maybe a day.”

“I thought it only takes seconds.” He did say that before.

“The kiss only does, as soon as my tongue hits yours it pretty much begins.” I shuddered.

“Is there a chance my heart could remain breathing and really fight off the pain?”

“No.” I layed back into him, I had to think. Is this what I wanted, a forever? I could be fast and strong, and never have to worry, but what happens if I change my mind? I began looking at the sky again.

“What did it feel like for you?”

“Well the immortal who found me found me dying.” That made me turn.

“Dying?” I looked into his eyes.

“Yes, I was in a car crash, practically dead. She said she wanted to help me, I was better then this. She looked me in the eyes and drew closer to my face. She whispered something like ‘this might hurt a bit’ or ‘don’t be afraid’ and then she kissed me. And went straight for a French. I had no idea so I went along, and then the pain came. I struggled and hassled, I wanted it to go away, I felt like this death was terrible. I only lasted one day, the pain faded I opened my eyes. Everything felt perfect, I got up to look up at the girl who did this to me. She smiled at me, called me ‘perfect’ and then started walking away, I followed her, she stopped a little ways up and told me everything. I was shocked.” He closed his eyes and smiled.

“She left me an hour later after explaining it to me, told me go somewhere, hang there, and to not tell the secret. She left me, and I found my place down south. And I was doing fine keeping the secret, until one day I was walking in the woods, I had been in there all day bored out of my mind, when I see this girl slump her bags down with a little baby and start climbing a tree. I don’t remember what happened next, I just had a strange reaction, and felt the need to protect her from everything. And it all led me to you.”

“You were there all along.” I smiled and the words chocked out, I felt tears arising.

“I love you.” And he kissed my forehead.

“I love you,” I looked back into his eyes and they had changed from their marvelous brown to a gray.

“Your eyes they are gray.” He laughed at my sudden change of words.

“Yes, they change.”

“Oh.” He laughed again, I knew he couldn’t help it, I had a dumb moment.

I looked back at the sky, it was sunset, I looked at Lexi, who I hadn’t payed all that much attention to. She had fallen asleep on the beach on the little towel. She looked like an angel.

“We should start moving.” He whispered from behind me.

“That would be smart.” I smiled, I couldn’t tell but the way he had his head on my hair I believe he smiled to.

“Lets go.” He stated while getting up and lending a hand. I took it gracefully, but ended up tripping on the way up, making me almost fall, but into his arms.

“I can’t wait till I’m not as clumsy.”

“Me too.” I knew he was kidding, but was I that much of a hassle?

He went and grabbed Lexi, and placed her on the right side of him, so that she could sleep comfortably. He lended me the other hand, and took it gratefully. We began walking away off the beach and off on a main road, I had no idea where we were going, but it didn’t matter. I would walk with him forever. Tonight though could change it all, I would have a beautiful kiss feel the pain of it, and be perfect. And no crazy goons chasing after us for the moment, that reminded me.

“Kellan, what about those people.” The ones who were following us before I passed out.

“They are fine, they wont bother me for now.”

“Why not?”

“Because I found you.” That shocked me.

“Why does that matter?”

“Well, they were waiting for me to change someone, they knew I was going to, but I never did. Then when they found out I had found you and hadn’t changed you. Lets just say it enraged them.”

“Mhh, just a little.” He laughed. I must be a funny person to him.

“Yeah, only a little.”

From there on it was quiet, we just followed a main road for a while, then took down a side one, the same one from where we took earlier on. Then we reached it, the house looked beautiful. He lead me in and I held his hand while he put Lexi in her crib and tucked her in. Then he took me and led me towards the masters bedroom, layed me down upon the bed and jumped upon with me. He kissed my forehead, my neck, and my lips slightly.

“Juliet are you ready?”

“I was born ready.”

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With that he took my face in his slightly warm hands and his lips touched mine. But they went past where we originally kissed, he dove in making the kiss last before starting to French with me. The moment was perfect his lips on mine felt like the day I met him, the days I looked up at the sunset, and the day I jumped off the cliff with him. Perfect, I didn’t realize much but I focused on the kiss. Until it ended, he pulled back and I felt my body begin to tense. Everything began to hurt, what a rush of emotions. I felt pain and anger and rage and furious and stupid, and wished death numerous times. But I remembered what he said, that he suffered to, I would for him, but I wouldn’t dare show him it. I didn’t want him to hurt seeing me. So I remained still, trying to calm things, I couldn’t think of anything, he was right it felt as though there was a war going on inside of me. My heart pounded furious, against the fierce pain inside me, it was holding it out as best it could. I remembered now the only thing that mattered was time. This would pass, in time. So I counted, and it distracted me though the pain hurt, I began to grow used to it. It obviously took me more time for my heart to lose then his, with my timing, I was already breaching a day four, and then the pain got worse. I couldn’t move, I didn’t want him to see me hurt, but the pain killed. I remembered back to this story I read before I ran away, about a girl who did this to, but I read it awhile back. These stayed strong, and became beautiful. Day six, the pain still intense nothing calming. Day seven, I have thought everything through, my mind grew to think of answering more than one thing at once, I was able to see pretty colors in my mind, I looked back at memories and tried to understand the past. Then my heart began to slow, and the pain must have found a way in.

 

My heart felt like someone just sucked the life out of them. The pain went in and I listened as my heart gave it’s last beats. I started to ponder, should I really have done this? Was it worth all the pain? Why couldn’t I live forever with a heart beat, it’d be the thing I’d miss most? I found the answers, yes, yes, then my heart gave a big humph. Da-dumph da-dumph, da-dumph, and then it ended. No more heart beat. I opened my eyes to see the world as Kellan saw it.

 

The sights were better than a heart beat times one thousand...and the girl from that story who when she opened her eyes saw eight colors of the rainbow, mine saw nine.