flawlessly scared.

 

It was a magnificent sight. I caught the sight of the rainbow right on the back wall, and it was casting shadows. The room was bright, and there were kids outside playing. I slanted my direction towards the door, that was closed, and knew he probably didn’t know I was awake. He was on the other door, awaiting, maybe even thinking I’m dead. I decided to get up slowly, maybe because I was nervous, and sat up. Everything was clear, I could see all the dust in the house I’d never seen before. I moved my body slightly, and my legs followed, I jumped slightly off the high bed, and hit the floor without a noise. I walked slowly to the door, amazed by how easy this all was. I reached for the door handle, and then stopped.

 

Was everything really different, was I not me? I felt normal, maybe a little smaller and smarter, but I felt the same. What is on the other side of the door, that could have made me want to not open it?

 

Then Lexi started to scream, and I merked. I must have been there in half a second flat, and grabbing her up into my arms cradling her as usual. She was, trying to pull away? And I let her, she looked up at me, in shock I suppose, but saw who I was, through my eyes, she remembered me, even though I must not have looked like me. She placed her head back on my shoulders and I could feel her relaxing. I rocked with her in my arms, slowly turning staring down at her, until I saw someone else was in the room. My eyes gazed up an I knew him in seconds flat.

“Kellan.” The boy looked astonished.

“Juliet?” And questioning me.

“Yes, in the flesh.” I smiled, who else?

“I, I thought you didn’t make it. You didn’t say anything, and---“

“I didn’t know I was supposed to.” He smiled at that, still pondering, but not as much. Lexi, seemingly taking to my new form already fell asleep in my arms.

“Here, put her to bed, I have to show you something.” With that, I gently placed her in her crib and tucked her over. He held out his hand, and I took it. As I did many times, but this time it felt different. It had a whole new meaning, as though everything was right. Any pain I felt within those last few days were worth it. He led me to the room, I had originally awoken to, the masters suite. He led me into the room, then spoke.

“Close your eyes.” I did, but he cupped his hands over my eyes anyways. He led me obviously around the bed, and then we stopped short. He uncapped his hands from my eyes.

“Open your eyes.” I did, and was dazzled by the girl looking back.

 

She was beautiful. Her feet were about a size six, her entire body small. She was skinny, but had all the right curves. She could probably stun just about any guy without saying a word. She had blondish brown hair, and perfectly in curls. Just the right size, with not a single split end, or hair out of place. Her face had no make up added, but perfect. Her skin looked soft, comfortable, as did the girl. She had pink lips, and a nose and two blue eyes, she blinked, and then they were gray. How astonishing this girl was. She had nothing but a t-shirt on though it was long, and you could tell she was flawless. Suddenly, as if I would have never imagined, that girl was me. And I turned my face away from the girl in the mirror, knowing who she really was. That’s what surprised Lexi, the change, but what calmed her, was that she always had a skill of looking inside me, and seeing me.

I turned to look at Kellan. “Perfection,” he eyes looked me up and down, “and all the while I thought I had done something wrong.” He smiled.

“I’ve never felt so good.” And I wasn’t kidding, my body never felt so at ease.

“Oh, you’ll get used to eye changes, they slow down, after awhile.” He must have seen the amazement in my eyes earlier.

“Kellan, I love you.” And then as if he knew I was to say that he hugged me, no second notice.

“Jewels, I love you too.” But I felt the tension in his voice. And I pulled back.

“What?” I looked him dead in the eye as saying this, and I knew he’d cave in.

“Something happened.” He looked down, something was really wrong.

“What?” I felt as though my heart was breaking while going through all the possible scenarios.

 

Then he started in on the story, as I stumbled back on the bed, confused and a little hurt by every word.

 

 

After he said what he had to, he walked out the bedroom door, opened the front and then shut it. I reflected upon the story.

 

 

****

“You remember when I said I thought you were dead?”

“Yes.” I whispered.

“Well, I left you for six days, and went out, I needed some air.” I knew he wasn’t stopping. “And, I went to the beach, and got myself an ice cream, and then I saw it. Her. She was already one of us, and I felt extremely needy of her. I walked up to her and said hello.” My face hurt, I saw down on the bed to relax.

“You like this girl?” It’s all that was manageable.

“Even more then the day I saw you, and I love her. Look, I’m sorry alright.” He looked sincere.

“So what now?” Was he to want me to forgive him?

“She is waiting for me at the beach, and then we are going to stay there for about two days, long enough for you to pack.”

“I-I have to move?”

“Yes, me and her are going to live here. You can grab your stuff and find some other place, I’m so sorry Jewels.”

“Don’t call me that!” I yelled, first time ever at him, and then felt warm water run across my face.

“Juliet, I love her. And I don’t feel the same for you, there are other fish in the sea.” Was I supposed to laugh at that? “I have to go she is waiting for me. Take care of yourself, and know who is one of us and who isn’t.”

I had to ask, “how will I know.”

“Trust me, they stand out.” And with that my memory faded, with him leaving the room.

****

 

So what do I do now? I have nowhere to go, no food for Lexi, seeing as though, I never need to eat. Somehow though, I had to move on, forget about him. I went to Lexi. She was sleeping in her crib, obviously unaware of everything. I had a feeling of envy at that moment, that she could sleep, and eat, and dream. Dream a happy dream, and not have to worry about the constant nightmare she is in. That we are in. I grabbed her slightly to not cause a stir and cradled her in my arms. I grabbed a bag, he must have packed for me while I sat in silence, and walked through the door. I finally made it to the front door, turned around to give the beautiful home we were supposed to live in forever a last look. Turned back around and headed out the door. I swore to myself I’d never look back. But where was a girl like me supposed to go?