Some say God only gives you the things you can handle. Well I think he
overestimated my strength. I can't forget the sight of a boys throat sewn shut
after his attempt to tear it apart. The sight of a girl my age, so overwhelmed
by anger and sadness, that she couldn't stop punching that damn brick wall. I
cannot forget the sound of cracking knuckle bones, just as loud as the sound of
her cracking sanity. I've heard those things, and the sounds still echo in my
head. They are the soundtrack to my nightmares, an agonizing chorus slowly
drifting around me.
Seeing those horrific images flash behind my eyes at the most inconvenient
times. Being struck with fear and unable to move because my body is spending all of its energy to keep my heart from falling out of my chest. Trying to use
staples and tape to mend my shattered soul.
Not knowing how to explain "what just happened" when you don't really know yourself.