what is wrong with me????

what is wrong with me?

am i broken?

am i dead inside?

am i stupid?

am i too obsessed with taylor swift? 

am i too annoying?

am i too depressed?

did he break my heart?

does what they did count as trauma?

the words they said keep going round and round my head.

is that whats wrong with me?

the overthinking?

the insecurities?

the bullying?

the abuse?

maybe its none of that.

maybe its my autism.

maybe its this curse i have.

the one i should be proud of,

yet its a disability.

the reason i cant eat cooked spinach.

the reason i cant understand jokes.

the reason my obsessions become unhealthy.

the reason i cant think like other people.

maybe nothings wrong with me.

maybe i AM perfect, just like people say. 

but then why am i like this?

why cant i find the answer to a question?

why cant i think straight?

why do i hate my friend for getting tickets to a concert?

why do i always forget to do skincare?

why am i broken?

why?

why?

why?