breakfast

A Poem by fern

i dont wanna eat breakfast.
its extra calories i dont need.
im already fat enough.
"please eat."
"im not hungry."
"i dont believe you."
i sigh and look into her beautiful brown eyes.
i wanna kiss her.
but nows really not the time.
f**k. my. life.
"fern?"
i look up
"sorry"
i look back down at the piece of toast.
its just food.
just food.
its not gonna do anything.
its just food.
no!
it has calories, it has carbs, its gonna make me gain weight!
"fern, you deserve food."
no i dont. i dont deserve anything.
"i know" i whisper.
i look across the table at the others.
theyre all staring.
f**k.
i shake my head.
"im not hungry. im not eating it. im sorry."
i stand up and walk back to my dorm, holding back tears of shame and fear.
i really hope it gets better because i cant do this for much longer.