Nonplussed and Dreaming

I can't remember why I wrote this...

Here on the limb I have pulled myself unwilling out on to,
[Hang on],
This is wrong, my heart and mind hurts,
[There he is],
Jesus I can't do it, this is eating me away,
[Drop it].
God I can't...
Help me...
It hurts so much...
Please...release me,
Before I do it myself,