Fluctuating

The rage that I feel

The ups, the downs

Don't know how much

More I can take

With the fluctuations of all these pills,

My body, My mind

Is under so much stress

Can't tell if I'm coming or going

At time I could care less,

I want to hurt myself

I want to rid myself of all the anguish,

This can't all be healthy

When at the prime of my life

I just want to vanish,

Into the abyss

And yearn

To never again return.

Author's Note

Written 12/17/12

Reviews

[David Scott]

You catch a common feeling and flutter it onto the page in clear focus. I'm sorry you cam relate to such emotion, but the expression of this "phasing" in and out of focus can resolve questions into a solid state of a palpable reality. Knowing that your feelings are valid and owning them helps dull the urge to "escape" the inescapable.
Goo poem.

[Tarry Franck]

Thank you

[Rob Santana]

aaww man I love this one here! I can tottally relate to this one. Well written Tarry." I just want vanish into the abyss" strong words there.

[Tarry Franck]

Thank you my friend :)

[DrD]

No, it isn't healthy, but writing about it and keeping your medications is. Keep writing and putting things in perspective. God bless.

[Tarry Franck]

Thank you

[quinfinn]

deeply honest and frightfully precarious....more writing will summon forth further resolve.....excellent write

[Tarry Franck]

Thank you

[John Alexander McFadyen]

A well written poem with raw and desperate tones. I am hoping you conquer this feeling and get rid of the pills! As you said you are in your prime so let it roll!

[Tarry Franck]

Thank you very much

[A Soapy Mess Stories]

I can feel the anguish in your words. I sometimes feel this way and I'm not taking any pills. Hope things get better for you.

[Tarry Franck]

Thank you so much!!

[Shawna]

I really love this, it's so brutally honest and unapologetic. Thank you for sharing!

[Tarry Franck]

Thank you for reviewing. Glad you liked it.

[Lover Of Words]

I love this!

[Tarry Franck]

Thank you!

[Frieda P]

Wow this is weird, I just wrote about deja vu and I swear I read this already! This is full of anguish and frustration, I hope that writing helps rid you of your demons.

[Tarry Franck]

No for some reason I ended up with 2 accounts and you did read it on the other page. But now that I have my main account kinks out, I took those 5 poems, I believe, and added this to my pages here.

[Frieda P]

haha, so much for deja vu eh? ;-)

[Tarry Franck]

Could've just kept it a secret but I don't like messing with people like that. However, I've experienced Deja Vu and love when it happens. Sorry to have ruined it for you.

[C.C. Marx]

A unexpected, slightly sadder poem coming from you, I'm kind of surprised tarry! Well great job all the same

[Tarry Franck]

Thank you

[C.C. Marx]

My pleasure as always and inrepsonse to the inbox message mine is currently malfunctioning I understand that being prone to anxiety attacks