Sullen Shorts

Not long enough to make individual pieces...

Little amber glass
Getting lower by the second
Thumper in my head
'If you can't say anything nice...'
Then pour another drink.

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When I close my eyes there's a wave that never recedes
I'd like to believe that it's a separation of my entity
Justify the beauty of the world if there's not a mystery
The future is a disintegrating supernova facing eternity.

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I looked god in the eye
Telling him that I wouldn't serve without understanding
There is no loyalty without respect, I screamed in his face
So he looked back at me, hand upon my back
Saying the Antichrist feels the same way.

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I am at a disconnect.
I can't hear anything anymore.
I don't trust myself anymore.
I don't believe in myself anymore.
I feel dirty.
I feel used.
I feel defiled.
I'm trying to find some optimism.
It ain't anywhere around.
Surrounded by s**t in a world of s**t.
It's in my mouth, the words I speak.
It's all I can smell every day.

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I am a fly, like you, tangled in the web of world, wings useless stuck
If only the spider hadn't moved on.  Hanging here starving is worse.

Author's Note

Just interesting little lines from my scratch pads.

Reviews

[Kenneth The Poet]

You should enumerate each part...I don't know why I said that, that's just how I see it. Otherwise, your thoughts are dark, dank and core-cutting.

This is a splendid work. It stokes the darkness with me.

[tekphobik]

I like the amber sullen shorts,
As a you know what I am, I can only say cheers
On all that utterly drunken Amber.

Orange, lives in me,
As the world lives across... ha! loved it!

E.L.

[tekphobik]

Thanks. I don't know if I was too lazy to do anything with all these lines, or just too uninspired.

At least you were yourself, most important ;)

[tekphobik]

Actually, untrue. Most of these were written in a semi-conscious dissociative state that I would be hard pressed to call 'me' per se.

So you were drunk? drugged? :D

[tekphobik]

Drugged for those. I don't even remember writing them. I just looked back through my book after the fact.

Well that's astonishing, and you did know how marvelous tripp you had, after... only can admire, your half dutch :P

[tekphobik]

No idea if any of it was marvelous. Don't remember a thing except little notes. It's kind of a fun game trying to piece together night before the morning after with nothing but shrapnel and broken furniture.

Wohaaaaaa... broken furniture, seams decrepit..... LOL