chapter 4 jane in wonderland

Jane must battle her demons to awaken will she be able to fight in her weak state? Lets find out

 her mom replaced her with even her own mother thinks she isnt good enough. She is just a show off no one will even love her

She might as well die she is just wasted space after all. NO ITS NOT TRUE 

I AM A PERSON I AM SMART I AM FUNNY AND I AM LOVED I sreamed you are a it why do you try so hard? What are you trying to prove an way?  NOTHING IM NOT PROVING ANYTHING  I wake up in a sweat hugging the person closest to me they pat me on the back its okay it was only a nightmare said jake I look up to see a smiling jake see you must think he's cute you clung to him my dad says. I calm down and lay back down. She hasn't talked much and she has stoped eating my dad says I don't say anything the fact she hasnt yelled at you to get out is just to show she likes you my dad said. no she can't she cant even move her arm without a great deal of force on her part so she wont be able to take for mouths. Coming back after she died took alot.

And she the young man was closer to her so its only natural for her to cling to him. The older doctor said I blink my eyes in agreement hey jane do you think I'm cute I bet you says alex I blink in agreement I bet you want to make out with jake huh? I punch him with all my might but its limp I will take that as a no jake says. I think she needs her sleep now I pull on my dads shirt I don't want to sleep I try to say but comes out I don't wat sheep everyone looks at me the doctor comes closer to me and smiles you are truely one of a kind my dad jumps for joy  jake but comes out dake  I point to his zipper he blushes thinking something dirty jake your zipper is down alex says  I blink in agreement he turns bright red I can't laugh but I smile.

Jake's pov after jane leaves my home I get studying but I hear a emt truck rush by I wonder what happened everything is normal I get washed up and go to school. but I get there and everyone is talking did you hear about jane she jumped off the roof? good I hope she dies. 

I see the people that where once acting as her friends have now turned their back to her. 

I notice jane isn't at her locker nor at lunch but I go to math class and she isn't in her seat 

Miss tanner I ask she looks sad where is jane? The teacher looks as if she lost a child 

She is in the hospial she says without anything more 

Later that day I come home and I tell my mom what happened she looks like she is about to cry mom why is jane in the hospital I ask her she looks at me and says she tried to kill herself

No that's a lie I say she looked so happy and loved even her friends act like she didn't happen mom! My mom sheads a tear I want to see her i say jake sammy everyone that comes to vist she yells at them to leave. so I came when she was alseep and we talked she is a really good person. Sammy said mom take me to her with that me mom and alex get in the car we get there and jane's heart rate goes up I HATE YOU JAKE HANDSON I WISH I NEVER MET YOU she yells as she throws a vase at me I don't understand why she is mad at me what did I do? I clamly place the flowers I got her on the bedside table and walk out  

Jenny's (the mom of jake) pov

Alex comes over and says you feel alone worthless because not even your own mother wanted you. You are very good at looking like everything everyone says about you doesn't hurt but their is only so much a person can take before they lose it. you are mad at jake because you helped him dance then you bestfriend yelled at you to show you that even she wasnt on your side you started thinking everyone was right he says jane throws a pillow at him. See the fact you didn't throw the flowers jake got you means you care he said JUST LEAVE ME ALONE YOU KNOW NOTHING I DONT NEED ANYONE jane  yells i look at jane with a tear in my eye we leave the poor girl alone alex how did you know all that I ask her journal 

A few days later 

My mom gotten a call that jane wasnt doing so well i when I got there she was asleep but it was like she was holding on to stand of hair when she is hanging from a cliff 

Jane? I don know if you are listening or if you even care. But please come back I know you think the wight of the world is on your shroulders but no one said you have to carry it alone. I'm sorry I couldnt save you from yourself. Just please wake up and I will do my best to be like you I  said she is going to die if we don't get her a new heart. The doctor said to jane's dad her heart has bed beating over time and now its weak and it will just stop beating all togeter the doctor says she was rushed off to surgery she was in there for about four hours the older doctor comes out and says at 11:42 am e. Jane andams died we all look very sad but then he starts but at 11:43 e. Jane andams took back her life her dad jumps for joy 

Hello you are jake handson right? Says a woman I have never seen before yes I am I say I am jane's mother I heard so much about you so you are the one that has been eyeing my baby girl the other woman said I am the one who gave birth to jane. Then i see a young girl about my age oh that's Casey jane's step sister she blushes when I looked at her hmm jane came right out and said I was handsome without blushing or shyness but her sister  is like every other girl we are granted to see jane  her family and famliy friends went first she was asleep they said then it was my turn her once long brow hair but her hair wasnts just brown their was red and black and blonde it was not gone her head what head was shaved I just sat next to her bed her dad was in the corner watching her. I told you you would make it I say she looks as if she is having a nightmare she wakes up and in one swift movment she clings to my her arms around my back her face buried in my cheast this felt right I rub her back and try to calm her down but when she she sees its me and not her dad she turns away her eyes they are now gladed over as if she is already gone. She seemed so happy she noone saw her but her famliy and my mom only becuase she is a nurse at where jane is staying I hadnt seen jane in days and days turned to weeks weeks turned to mouths mouths turned to years 

Next week I play a tune on the piano 

J is for joy that you seem to have so much of

A is the advanture that you call your life

N is never because you never give up 

E is for envy thats what they have for you

I wish you would see what everyone has already saw 

Hey jakey my girlfriend said hey I say

Is that song for me she asked with a smile 

Yes I say she smiles come on sing it 

J is for joy that you seem to have so much of

A is the advanture that you call your life

N is never because you never give up 

E is for envy thats what they have for you

She kisses me I kiss her back and jake come on 

She says with sammy and alex and my older brother dressed up come on they say 

Come on its jane's birthday and her dad asked us to come but I don't have a gift that song will do sammy says oh and she is my best friend now she added since when I ask since we met sammy says 

Author's Note

Duh duh duuuh