im tired

im tired of being tired
im tired of not being good enough
im tired of not finding time to express myself
im tired of nothing curing me from this endless disease

im tired of worrying when i can't stop it
im tired of planning when it never works out anyway
im tired of hoping and then getting disappointed
im tired of trying when I know it's not going to work

im tired of facing death in every aspect of my life
im tired of feeling guilty for every single thing I use
im tired of not being able to trust anyone
im tired of searching when there's nothing to be found

im tired of crying when nothing's going to help
im tired of smiling when im breaking down inside
im tired of speaking when no one is listening
im tired of caring when no one even notices when im down

sometimes i wonder what im worth
would anyone miss me if im no longer there?
my stupid dreams will never come true
i cant change the world and i dont like the way it is now

Reviews

[Rogue]

I think you have captured perfectly feelings that most of us have at one point or another in our lives. The only thing we can really change is ourselves. The world begins with those around you. Small things make all the difference, making someone smile or laugh, wiping a tear, holding a door, doing a favor, just listening.. If we all did these things, the World wouldn't be a problem.
Thank you for sharing this.

[The Nameless]

thanks =D