Nature Or Nurture

Is my passitivity, natural or the by-product of my abusive past.

Sigh.

Not sure

How to write

About this part

Of myself.

Having

Ripped out

Several pages

With various approaches

On this matter.

Littering

The apartment

With several paper balls

For Venus and Star

To play with.

But

Feel I must

For the next stage

In the holistic healing

Between my body

And soul.

It is

Regarding

The passivity

Of my personality

And it's determinate effect

On my healing.

Does

This passivity

Results from a past

Filled with violence?

Where

Standing out meant

Making a target of myself

For verbal and physical

Abuse.

Else

A natural part

Of my personality

Which when intertwined

With my introverted nature

Creates a very cautious person.

Whom

Happens to be

A very easy target

To take advantage of

By others.

Or

A combination

Of the above.

Wish

I knew.

In

Doing so

Would better

Understand myself

As a person

And the journey

I am on.

Author's Note

Originally written January 14, 2013.