An Overview

A brief glance of my life.

Piece by piece

I am repairing

What I hope

Was once

Whole.

Not sure

When I noticed

The first missing chunk

From my soul.

Beyond the fact

Being a young child

Who discovered

Their soul was housed

In the wrong body

Gender-wise.

By

The age of seven

This knowledge

Was self-evident.

For

More years

Than I care to count

I hid this knowledge

From others.

As I tried

To fit into society

Living my life

In my birth gender.

Forced

To endure bullying

In it's various forms

Which took a very heavy toll

Upon my psyche.

As

Depression

And anxiety issues

Soon followed

While suicidal attempts

Came around the corner.

All

Before the tender

Age of twelve.

Yet

The silence

Continued.

Told

My emotional behaviour

Was not normal

For a little "boy".

Turning

Ever further inwards

I lived my life.

Struggling

Not thriving

Like the other kids

In school.

Oh

I went to university

And completed

My BA.

During this time

None were aware

Of the deep battles

Raging across

My soulscape.

Which

Climaxed

During a visit

To my dad's gravesite

In November 2005.

Where

My healing started

Anew.

In becoming

A whole person

Both body

And soul.

Often

A long and bumpy road

Which I walk.

Reviews

[Holly Mason]

This is written with a soft touch of grace
thank you for sharing your life journey it is an overview truly
To know at such an early age I was not expecting that but I do not know
that is why I like to read your work you are so open with words
thank you for sharing

[therisa]

Thank you, Holly, for your kind and genderous words. For many transpeople, it is not unusual to identify themselves, as being born in the wrong body. Just that society has become more open and accepting of this fact. When I was 6/7 years old, I imagine that I had I breast with the aid of bubble bath.