From Nothing To Something

Tackling one of the barriers and stigmas, associated with PTSD.

Most of my life

People have told me

I'm nothing

But a worthless piece 

Of garbage.

And yet

When I confront my past

You tell me

Not to victimize myself

Again.

Using your own experience

As a measuring stick

To find me

Wanting.

Having never experienced

The crippling depression

or the anxiety

Associated with PTSD.

Never mind

The paralyzing terror 

Which flashbacks bring.

Or the fact

Suppressing decades 

Of toxic memories

Without confronting them

Head on.

How is

My wanting to talk

Revictimizing myself?

In taking a stand

And purging the toxicity

From my soul.

By allowing 

The first steps

Of healing

To occur.

Empowering me

Unlike anything

I have experienced

Before.

And yes

It can be scary

At times

But worth it.

Author's Note

Why do people believe that happy thoughts can cure everything, which is wrong with us, mentally? This is my response to a person, I wish I have could expressed to them, about myself, how I dealt with my abusive childhood, and it's affect upon my life.

Originally written March 4, 2014.

Reviews

[J Todd Underhill]

Well done, I like this piece as I too have had an atrocity commited to me as a child which I have dealt with for 37 years and this lends a voice to those who should talk through their issues!

[therisa]

Thank you, Mr Underhill. I hope you're able to some type of closure, to move on with your life. Myself, I am struggling to make advances, but each day is a new challenge and my revenge against my abusers. For I am following my dreams.

[J Todd Underhill]

That's the spirit, the only thing you can control in this life is you, and how you react to the situations you have been through... it's all just a learning process!