God Complex

A conditions, doctors develop, once they have left med school.

So sick and tired
Of being told
To suck it up
By patronizing doctors
When taking anti-depressants.

 

As if
At first sign
Of any discomfort
Will demand a stop
For that particular drug.

 

When the truth is
The polar opposite
In placing
My quality of life
And direct health
First.

 

What good
Is an anti-depressant
If you're bed bounded
For several days
With a migraine headache
Because the drug made you
More sensitive to them?

Or you need
To take other meds
Just to counter The side-effects
Of the anti-depressant
On the lowest dose.

 

Else
Interacts with other meds
For which
No other alternative exist
I can take.

 

As I am
On these meds
For the rest of my life.

Just once
I want to see
A doctor
Who has lived
Through my experiences
And understands
My challenges.

 

As I struggle
To find equilibrium.

 

Author's Note

Before I started Sertraline, on May 5th, my nurse practitioner shared with me, the note that a shrink had written to my doctor. Let's just say, it wasn't very flattering of me.

Originally written, May 28, 2014.

Reviews

[closed]

sincere writing. good implementation of plain speak in conveying your message. I've taken this before so I know where you're coming from

[therisa]

Thank you, Dream, for your kind and understanding review. Will be demanding an end to Sertraline, as I have given it, four months of my life, for nothing, but pain and suffering.

[closed]

Np. Ill be reading some other things of yours. I hope you find something that works better for you. -Dream

[therisa]

Sertraline is, my eighth and last attempt, to find the right prescribed medication. I can't take it anymore. Each new drug is more toxic, than the previous ones. Be my guest, Dream, select whatever grabs your attention.

[closed]

wow 8th huh. I'm sorry that its taken so long to find something that would help you. I didn't like being on medicine either. Maybe you're better off without it

[therisa]

Just my luck that my body is chemically sensitive. Made finding the right drugs for anything, a royal pain, in the butt. I have gone periods of upto 16 months without taking meds, but find myself, in a situation, which I can't stabilize myself, without temporary help.