Life's Paradox

How do I share

What it felt like

To live your life

Knowing

It's a lie.

 

But feel powerless

In your ability

To stop this

When rejection is

The price paid

For being different.

 

Submerging your true self

During a time of crisis

Because society demands it

As the eldest "son".

 

Taking up

A mantle

Never meant for me

As anxiety and depression

Became a part of my life.

 

Until suicide attempts emerged

The only solution for me

"He" had to die

Before I could be

Reborn.

 

Funny

It was my family

Who pulled the trigger

Psychically killing "him".

 

Thus

Freeing me

Talk about irony.

Author's Note

Originally written, August 13, 2014.