My Need

A soul's need for peace, after decades long fighting.

How do I explain

My chronic need for healing

When I have been fighting

For more than 40 years

One way or another.

 

Weariness

And exhaustion

Have weight down

My soul.

 

Where

Anger has turned

Into apathy

Of the worse kind.

 

Neglecting myself

For I see no end

To this most personal

Of wars.

 

I had forced

Upon me

At a young age.

 

Just wanting

To be normal

And accepted

By others.

 

Not a target

Of ridicule and fear

Because I'm different

From them.

 

As I ask

For the impossible.