Not fairly okay..

Trying

Trying to be okay 

When she is getting pushed away

Push her away when your angry

Push her away when nothings going right for you

Push her away

When all the problems begin to pile

And at the end..

She remains

There..

Holding onto to while you have pushed her away

She waits for you

Waits until your okay..

But how would she know

If your quiet 

Locked away 

And in your own circle..

Pain within her eyes grows

As the thoughts at night sink in and become questioned

While her wishes become more wishes

Wishes that you could hold her closer

Pull her closer

Let her in

Because at the end she is there..

There is nothing to be afraid of.

But instead she is being pushed away

While she waits..

Then when your okay you pull her closer

After the damage has been done

After all your problems washed away

But she didn't let you push her too hard away

She didn't leave 

She stood..

But you only pulled her closer when everything went good

And pushed her away when everything went bad

Its not fair..

It hurts her

Makes her quiet and worthless

Then you question her why she becomes upset

When in reality it is not her fault

You pushed her away when you were not okay

But then lead her to not being okay..

It hurts..

It hurts her to know instead of pulling her closer

you pushed her away 

She tried to be there

You argued, became quiet, and when things went how you wanted it to 

You pulled her closer..

Instead of pulling her close through the good and bad..