Endless confusion

What if you deserve so much better?
What if your hiding your spirit under?
What if your in your head
Trying to literally pretend
Pretend it’s all okay
But checking out more and more day by day
Is it worry?
Do I feel sorry?
Am I in denial?
Was this all a trial?
What if it was all temporary?
What if I just need real clarity?

Just so many questions
But feel like there’s no solutions
Round in round in my mind
Leaving me no answers to find
Not sure what to do
Not sure what is true
Not sure if it’s flesh or spirit
I just don’t want to repeat it

It’s like how can you love someone so much?
But feel like you’re stuck in this clutch?
This back and forth rollercoaster
Not knowing how to truly foster
Foster the feelings and emotions
Or the love potions

Questions after questions…