She is Her

Find myself in a repetition
Circling round and round in my intuition
Feelings valid or invalid?
Can’t pretend if in the future I don’t really have it
The love, the security, the leader
I know I have God whose my redeemer
God who provides and always is there
But sometimes I ask myself is it fair?
The feelings, the questions, the doubts, the unknowing
But what am I really doing?

I know I need to be true to myself and let God
But my emotions are in such a fog
It’s this tug in my heart
Not knowing what’s life set apart
Not know what’s next
Whether that’s being another ex

Round and round, lost in a circle
Knowing one day I was fertile
Lost in a what if
That it wasn’t time & I miscarried it
It’s like how could all this be?
When love and happiness was all I could see
But now I have questions unanswered
Not knowing whether the feeling will brush away like a feather

Not sure what tomorrow truly will hold
But truth is I have to accept and be bold
God renews the broken hearted
And in that I will never doubt it
But change is scary
And knowing it can be today, tomorrow, who knows, but there’s no real clarity
So till then it’s an unanswered prayer
Or maybe I’m in denial and the answers always been there…