Rewind

 

Skipping pages like minutes

And chapters I wish I never read

 Wake me up in the middle of today

Asking where are you going

Slowing my steps

I halt

And ponder

You and I

Why?

 Asked my self more times

 Than stars in the sky

 Still feeling you against my ovaries

Planting spiritual seeds

 In me

Your characteristics

Still in me

 I be fighting your thoughts

In my head

Waking up out my bed

Playing phone tag

And one text message

Away from total deletion

To end this

Merry go round

 Of nothing

I pushed the button

 Thought I hit rewind

 But it fast forwarded me to consequences

And my belly was full

Carrying a child

That belonged to you

Crying as I walked alone

Picking up the phone

You question paternity

While I wear your t-shirt

In your bed

No commitment

 But all promises

I wake up back to here

And look in the mirror

You say fear keeps you

From being my man

But not from acting like him

Like when 2 am finds you

Inside my walls grinding again

Protection can’t stop the Infinite

Penetration of life seed

Fast forwarding me to child support hearings

And a baby wondering

Mommy why  don’t you like my daddy?

But you scrape my internal walls

And play in my fertile grounds

 And I let you in

As if I have no part in it

Rewind to numbers being exchanged

And your s being erased

No first date

And I never woke up next to you

Reviews

[Mariah]

aboslutely amazing. !
i know how you feel,
if that makes sense.
stay strong.

[Mr. Deft Diction]

That's enough to make a woman say, "see, that's why I don't f**k with men!" At the same time, this was totally, if not, brutally honest.

Another awesome write.

[Baby Boy]

Wow! You are awesome gurl! Thisis an excellent write and I know it has a meaning and that meaning I did get! But damn, the way you worded this was very deep to say the least, and it was if I was right there with you while reading this and feeling your pain! This is good sweetie! You truly can write! :) One luv Miss Choosing Life! :)


-JC-