magic wand

solo

they’re lying when they say it makes them feel independent 

that sound of the shower beating down

muffling cries and moans and feelings 

drowning out pleasure, you can’t tell its pain

its not about strength or a sense of self

its because you are lonely and have no one else

to hold or to have to love or to grab

so you’re left on your own with desires to fill

so you find substitutions and new sorts of games

to trick yourself into thinking that you’re okay

nothing is foreign you’re used to yourself

you think you’d know better than anyone else

but sometimes its hard doing it for yourself

the statistics are in but you claim they're a lie

a side effect is depression, frankly you’re not surprised

it distracts for the moment but you still die inside

its more of a habit as you do it everyday

you think its you’re secret

one that you keep safe

but i see in your eyes that its you’re last recourse

you’ve given up on them and on love and on lust

so this is your choice, one of only yourself

its not as though you had other options

your hand has been dealt

so you make the best of it 

but as you sit there alone in the dark unlit room

with the shine of your screen as your only companion

pretend you’re okay because at the very least

you can do it for yourself

Reviews

[Pete]

I enjoyed this. It speaks of hurt, desperation and dealing with that hurt. We could all use a little of that "Magic wand" I guess.