Blurry

Its all blurry,

these thoughts in my head...

so many irrational thoughts, 

they cloud my judgement,

i cant find my way.

its wet,

its dry,

its chaos,

its calm,

its cold and dark,

all my feelings clashing...

responsibility of all sorts ever growing..

into this pit of endless pain and destruction.

relapsing into the mind set o a child...

what the hell!?!?

why is this happening?!?!?

why did i have to grow u so fast?!?

accept the challenge that was thrown to me....

Why does everyone think im strong?

have not an ounce of strength left in this mortal body...

im not strong,

and if i was once...

that strength has turned into a fatty thing call i give up...

My God how can i be so stupid?!?

Thinking i Can be supportive!

no one knew,

no one knows what i have been through!

I cant take it anymore!

If i take on something else...

then surely i will die....

i cant breath, when nothing happens,

i cant think, when all is calm,

for God sakes why?!?

I cant take this anymore!!

Before i crumbled...

slowly...

but now...

now its rapid...

an immediate disintegration... 

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[Bohrium Guy]

Struggling with terms of life isn't always easy. Mixed feelings, being afraid of the future and life in general. A good write very strong in essence. Hats off!

~Rob~