The voice inside

My personal struggle with addiction.

I sit alone inside my mind,

Peace and hope I wish to find,

But, I hear him call my name so loud,

I don't want to listen but I don't know how,

To block these thoughts inside.

The hardest thing I've ever done,

Is pick up the phone and call someone.

I open my mouth and no sound comes out,

Yet inside my soul I scream and shout,

If only you could hear the thoughts inside.

He tells me things that are untrue,

like one more time would surly do.

He tells me things I want to hear,

Like one more time will end my fears,

How sweet are the thoughts inside.

Loudest is he when I'm alone,

For this face I wear is not my own.

I fake a smile to hide my grief,

How desperate I am for some relief.

If only you could see the the thoughts inside.

I'm only as alone as I choose to be,

This is a fact I can't unsee.

I'll let you peak inside my mind,

so maybe a connection you might find.

I'm releasing the thoughts inside.

Author's Note

Tell me what you think. Good bad indifferent. Does it make you feel anything at all.

Reviews

[SuspectGray]

Powerful stuff....it's clear you have been there. I like the rhyme scheme and the recurrence of what's happening with your thoughts. We all know that voice inside....the one that lies to us and whispers to that lie every chance it gets.

[Gee]

For someone who has never suffered understanding is so very difficult.Enjoyed reading your poem as it takes the reader through different stages of an addicts mind/life.

[terry smith]

Great poem UTM!!! addiction is a villain all it's own...one that no superhero could defeat. please keep writing and I will keep reading!!