Together

Together

So often I stand at this prepice ready to jump off but I back up and walk away

I could be more and I fear it yet I desire it and I want it

To have it all and to give it all 

To be free yet not without others

Yet, fear holds me down and keeps me choking on fumes of a past life

I must hold steadfast against this tide of my previous self-inflicted void

So I will break down my walls and reveal it all

I will do a leap of faith

I will choose to trust

Even if it all goes to s**t

Trust that we all can work and love together

Even if we don’t fully understand each other

Even if we are not always on the same page

Even if we cannot always get along or think we not in the same vibes

There is nothing to fix because nothing is broken

Just injured like a wound that hasn’t fully healed

Unlike toxic humanity, all wounds can heal and transform

So if it deemed if by the universe I could have my dream?

When the words stick in my throat would you know?

When I can’t tell you what’s wrong will you give me patience?

When I say the wrong words will you give me that which I give you?

Hell is humanity. Hell is here. This place.

This place of desolation. The lost and the damned.

Not actual hell. Not other planes. This human planet.

So I let go of them. I hold my kin instead.

I hold them all in my heart.

I chose my kin and let go of fixing a broken world

This world is lost and so thus must I let that go

Instead I will be there for those who matter

I will not falter because I matter too

I will not stay in the void anymore

Though I thought I was worth 1 penny

I am not that at all

I am beyond the vesiges of your view of me

I am me not you

And you are not me

Yet together we can find the courage to be free

Yet together we can find love for real

Love is many facets it is more complex than humans see it

Humans are complex yet they ignore that for the mundane

I live in realms far from here

I wish to bring all my kin with me

I don’t want to ever leave any of them behind again

I must also include myself in that however

How can I help anyone if I do not face myself first?

If I cannot get help outside I will try to help within

I saved myself and yet I still feel the wound burn

This wound however is not just mine

It is many of ours

This wound reveals the truth

That you can be loved in your mess

That you can love yourself in your own mess

That still reflects pain and echoes of insidious lies that were told

Humans do not see they could be more but the choice is theirs

So if they will not choose, then I will chose for me and for my kin

I give them the gift of dreams

I give them freedom

I take my dreams to fruition

I take my own freedom too

Together we must find a way to save us all

If you would give me that honor and trust

I will do the impossible

Because its says “I’m possible” in the very word.

So, tonight I cast my dice

Tonight I remember, remember the past and present

Together I renew my rebellion from the cages I constructed for myself

And perhaps you will break your cage too, you can you know?

All roads do not lead to ruin in fact even in ruin you can make a different choice

That is freedom of choices

Freedom of autonomy

Freedom of love

Freedom of belief systems

So know I accept you as you are 

Please accept me as I am

I don't have much else

Just this