Trying time

In hopelessness
I thought of my end
All the pretentious nonsense
Seem to be the trend

I've come to realize
Even if I do become skinny
More vanity will materialize
Towards outer beauty

I'll never be enough
To someone I aspire to conquer
Judgement is tough
For any potential lover

You may think a min
This is quite the extreme
But wait for it to sink in
You showed me this in a dream