Fading Footsteps

this is about being your own worst enemy

                     Fading Footsteps
Whispers of memory strum  their chords,
Over my  befuddled mind,
Echoes of  emotion tantalize my  senses,
Your scent so familiar, washes over me,
Wrapping me in its swirling shroud.

 

I know that you love me ,
The truth of this tatooed on your  eyes,
The truth  resounding in your words,
But the reality of me is never simple,
Never easy ,never permanent.

 

I dare not court happiness,
As my ability to sabotage myself is epic,
I trust you but I do not trust me,
For in the blink of the eye I am the sweetest angel,
Wrapping you in the haven of my wings.

 

But I beseech you do not blink!
Because the shrew inside that thinks I am a freak,
Will assault you with her venomous ramblings,
Drawing blood with her acidic tongue,
And you will inevitably like  all before.

 

Turn away with utter resignation ,
As the tears of my own summoning,
Fall unheeding ,their course countless times charted,
It cannot be expected that I would possess the tools to love another,
When I cannot love myself with any conviction.

                         by vidya

 

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

"It cannot be expected that I would possess the tools to love another,
When I cannot love myself with any conviction."
The above words are true wisdom. You must like yourself to have the ability to love another. Usually we are our worst enemy in the emotion and giving of love. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you for your kind words indeed they re the truth :)

[John Christiansson]

This is beautiful comment on the confusion that love erupts in us at times....A Volcano that wants to rest but is in the hands of nature.

[Vidya Bacchus]

That is true, thank you for your kind words:)

[Arcus]

Wow. I am taken aback by the power of this piece! Just, wow! I relate to this so much, so that only induces more power from this for me. Wonderful!! :)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you so much for this wonderful review it is deeply appreciated:)

[Arcus]

You are most certainly welcome. Thank you for sharing your work with all if us. :)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Awwwww........:)

[BubblingMe]

So much words and so much emotions in this poem, keep writing, it's a nice piece!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you very much and I will:)

[BubblingMe]

Okay cool;)

[Kaity Fisher]

Beautiful. This brought me to tears. Fantastic job!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you very much:)

[Evelynne Tionge]

I can relate.
Sometimes in life we leave those who care about us the most because we ourselves are a walking disaster.
The hardest choices a man can ever make involve love for it is the most complex of human emotions.
I see myself in this poem and a shroud of what i have burnt down.
Thank you for sharing.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you my friend for your lovely words:)

[Evelynne Tionge]

you are welcome :)

[Evelynne Tionge]

I have shared this poem to my facebook page, i hope you dont mind.

[Vidya Bacchus]

It is fine:)

[Penny]

I can truly empathise wid u. Sumtimes little failures in luv make u think u r nt worth it. & wen we get it at last v think sumthing's going wrong and end up losing it. Dis piece nt only potrays ur feelings but also evokes mine.

[Vidya Bacchus]

Thank you so much penny.This is the reality of life:)

[Penny]

Welcum. And i got so emotional i forgot to mention d bromide in last review, so doing it nw.. "Wonderful piece, thnx 4 sharing it."

[Vidya Bacchus]

Again thank you penny:)

[Penny]

And again welcum:-P

[Daffy]

This lovely work deserves a second read and more...I read fear in this. What we 'see' in the first blink of an eye, and what we perceive in the first instant, is more accurate, than years of analysing. A worry, here that the person's inner self will be discovered ...so best forewarn. A good strategy? Hmmm.
PS: something wrong with your word 'posess', methinks. (not important though)

[Vidya Bacchus]

You are so right !! I did'nt realize that i had forgotten an s(headslap)Thank you for pointing out and thank you so very much for your wonderful review it means alot:)

[Daffy]

you're most welcome.

[Neon]

Yeah .. I've seen pain of love into the piece and the desire of wanting something from the life to live more... to raise more. Very nice work ...

I trust you but I do not trust me,
For in the blink of the eye I am the sweetest angel,
Wrapping you in the haven of my wings...

.. this stanza's cool and Hey! Am glad to know that you now really agreed that your an angel and i always love to see angels especially when an angel's as same as you but i hate seeing someone as incredible beautiful as you wrapping someone in the heaven of wings except me .. "(Joke)"

Keep on!

[Vidya Bacchus]

Hahahaa funny neon.Thank you for your lovely review:)

[Neon]

The pleasure is all mine you beautiful Vidya .. But hey .. i always say what am gonna say that don't thank me .. please .. Hug me! Hug me! and just Hug me! so tight so that i could lost into the world of heaven.

[Vidya Bacchus]

You are such a hug addict it is very sweet .Here you go........

[Neon]

Wow! What a warm Warmth of yours!
Thanks, your beautiful one.

*Hugs*