No titile because i fail to name my feelings.

A Story by Viola

to the man i wrote this for, please come help me i hope this letter reaches you love you

love.

The past years have been so so weird and painful to me.I fail to understand everything and i fail to be understood too.Idk how this is suppose to work

how will you get to know me?how do i even know you?

my friends they dont really like you.And ykw as the saying goes your friends always spot guys who wont stay forever.But no no no

I love you in ways i dont know.And I cannot imagine anyone but you beside me.

As i write this my heart,yet again,is fillied with the same faimilar ache of lovescikness I thought i Batteled through it but I seem to be its victim again.I cant let this consume me.No not at all i cannot fall behind and stay sad.I can't.

BUt what am i to do

what am i to feel

idk where this will go idk where this feeling will take me again.

I hate it rainbow.I hate it.

I think i beg for your love because I am devoid of it.Arent i too selfish to expect you to love me so that i feel better?I am too selfish.

idk how my heart works out.I am tired.Do i like you?yes.

but then why do the 'ifs' consume me all the time?

I dont hate you.never will I.

when i think of you a feeling consumes me.makes my heart throb my veins run faster my adrenaline rushing and omg what not

idk what i should name it

i hate myself.I hate myself for excpecting you to love me the same way again

I am a pathetic being.You are not.I love you in ways i am yet to know and discover.

But will you love me the same way back?

I am putting my entire life in bringing us back.But will you be okay with it?will you put in the same efforts or will I have a really bad heartbreak

I know you will never break me apart.I know your kiss meant love and i know you will return.But the demons in me try to convince me otherwise.I am begging for you to come back in my life and love me.i cant do this anymore.I am tired.

Please find your melessa Please

I will be buying oranges again with hopes you pick the fallen one

i love you in ways i am yet to discover

I crave to hug you.

your's lovingly

Melessa