No title

On some days I wish having a kid.

I find the idea of bringing a life into this world very divine. To nourish a soul, give body to it and to make it see the light of this world is something that isn't appreciated enough. This year I had a mini surgery, an extra cell was cut off by the skilled dr and I felt every bit of the cut he made with his tools. It felt like current jolting through my body(it wasn't that bad maybe).This situation later made me realise how the  pain I went through was not even a perecent of what many women go through while bringing a child to into this world. Since then I am a little afraid of this.

To birth a child and to not love him.

The bond between a mother and her kid is a purest one.She feeds him,cleans him,bathes him does everything she is capabale and not capabale of doing.She does things she never knew should we do for someone.But I often see how many women around me don't share a loving bond with their children. Some give them constant taunts,some depreciate their kid's mental health and some force their kids to make choices their kids would hate.To sum up the mothers often stop showing affection to their kids after a certain age.I don't understand how she can love her baby as a baby but not when her baby turns let's say 10+.Why do people stop showing affection?specially mothers is a question I often ask myself.
If I had a kid

For my kid I would fight my fears so as to not instill the same in him.I would take my child to play in the rain and play with him too.I would take him close to dogs so that he learns to develop affection and is never afraid of them.
When he will take his first step I hope I am the one holding his lil hands.And if I am not I will clap lightly for him.Kids often are scared of loud sounds so I'llmake sure that my claps soothe him and make him feel proud.When he will first eat food I will smile at him.I will teach him to develop a healthy relationship with food.When he starts school I would hug him.I would make him smart in all ways.I would teach him how to sing,how to dance,how to swim, everything I am capable of teaching him. For him I would go the extra mile because to bring someone to life is to cherish them forever without expeceting anything form them.

To my kid I would show the entire world,the moon,the sun,the stars and trees. My happiness would lie in the light of his eyes brightening when he would giggle.I would joke,laugh,cry with him teaching him that emotions make us human and not vice versa.To my lil kid,I would teach every subject with the same enthusiasm and let him choose his fav.
To my kid I would shower with all love from every inch of my soul.
If afterlife is true I hope the soul that choose to be my child is always protected.
with love,

mother melissa.