break the silence

why are we hiding behind an awkward silence?
I am more apologetic than you could ever know...
it's killing me,
knowing that I brought this upon our already complicated lives...
being understood felt so great,
but when I no longer understand myself...
how can I be open and honest?
it's so much easier to continue hiding...

how do I break the silence...
when my screams are muted?
and my whispers are only deceit?
should I run...
until the silence fades away?
or wait around...
until the silence breaks me?