...and i love

i try to be everything to my closest of friends,
i love, and i love
them all, to no end...

but "everything" is confusing,
it's different,
it's weird...

you can only get so close,
before you're no longer friends

i try, and i try
to see smiles and cheers,
but when you accomplish that feat,
it all ends in tears...

so, i sit alone and wonder,
i wonder...
what's wrong with this picture?
what's up with this game?

and i hide, i hide
all my feelings
inside, inside,
for it's the only way
to get by, to say bye...

now it's time to be everything to my own self
learn to love what i am,
and why i am...
and where i am...

maybe then, i will finally understand
who i am...