mommy

A Poem by whitemagic19

to all the women who have had abortions and keep the happy memories that will never fade.

we never got to meet yet
i always dream of you.
what it would have been like to
watch you grow up and tell
you how much i loved you
everyday and every night.

when you were with me
you were everything to me
the world around me stopped
spinning,
time stopped
and all that kept me
alive was you.

even though you couldnt yet hear me
i talked to you all the time.
i read you stories and sang lullabys
promising you a future.

but one day it ended
mommy cried until
she couldnt cry anymore.

the doctors told me so
and i will never let you go.
in my dreams you will be
your so special to me.

i saw you as six years old
hugging me tightly
not letting go.
i squeezed you tight
as you held on

and said

"i love you mommy, it wasnt your fault, you did nothing wrong"

and when i wake up, i cant wait to sleep
because once again, there you will be
in my arms, hugging me.

god told me you were happy and healthy.
and i asked god, do you still love me
and to that god responded he doesnt hate you
but he wanted you to know he loves his mommy too.