Silent death_kadian fraser

Its sad and emotional no drugs where really taken.

The loneliness of my life pressure me to a Failure in being happy,
the pain of exercising my emotions sores my cardiac,
when will i ever love the color pink or even white,
leave the shadows and embrace me.

surgical tools seems to be piercing my pressure points
and my body hanged,
imaginations of heroine entering my body,
nicotine and coke fills my subconsciousness.

Mad that's where i am getting?
Crazy that's what i have been driven to.
Hopeless that's were i am at.

I cant depend on anyone but my tears for some relief of;
anger, pain and sadness.
i feel alone but i know there is a spirit keeping me alive,
from the ropes, from the knives, from the needles and the ink,

I found out lat i should of a place a strong emotional gate on me,
never to love because if i put it up now;i
will lock out yes but i will lock in;
destruction, pain and get a broken me.

where do i stand in their universe,
what am i?
finding out may be worst than the feeling.
 

Author's Note

just trying to express my self though i was confused.

Reviews

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ohhhhhhhhhh..this is so sad and after i read that i felt down ..
it is so nice and well expressed
and i could answer you "what am i ?"
you are a person might be better than a lot but you should believe in your self and your thoughts and you always be sure that you have one life, don't waste it ;)

sorry for getting far away from the subject but i think that the poem express the real feeling of the writer :)

[kadian fraser]

thanks