down on my feet

a journal....a bits of pieces.... a soul layed very much tired...

Dear Reader,

Guessing I being lazy doing practical things. It’s hard when practical people didn’t understand me. Thinking I’m indulging too much of my needs rather than practicality. I’m tired of people telling me this and that, you should do this and that, and I felt like I’m the dullest person here in Saudi. All my life I’ve followed my parents rules, sometimes I think all the rules I created doesn’t mean a thing. I’m tired of following my heart at times for they don’t actually speaks its mind-set. Meaning his always careful what to say to this people. Careful of the things hurtful to everyone, but what can I do, it’s part of my nature. I’m always careful not to hurt everyone around me, think with my heart or rather my heart and mind is in tune when I speak up on something. I’ve done it before speaking on impulses and it came out very bad, ending up hurting each other’s feelings.

Inferiority is really my enemy, he always keeps me down, down on my feet. I’m not humble, I’m just too harsh with myself. I guess they’re right after all I interpret thing too negatively for my own good. Practicality, it seems to be a part of my roots. It can never be cut nor burn down or else I’ll suffer the major consequences life can offer.

Your friendly neighbor,

W.Pax

Author's Note

You know After writing this, i felt much better... guess writing it down makes you feel feel much much better that you let it stayed in your mind as darkness will eat it up and in time it will explode and you end up hurting everyone and specially yourself...

if you've read this..feel free to give me your advice for I'm too exhausted to think for now...like the one i wrote in my blog...

thank you for reading...

Reviews

[FJ Davis]

An apparently honest sharing of views; frank expression of such feelings begins change.
Worthwhile work, Pax!

[Pax]

I hope so too mr. Frank...thank you...

[TTBoy28]

W. Pax - As a young boy, I was often told, "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything." Okay. That's all well and good. But there comes a time when you are solicited or even provoked to respond. And, being of a religion and spirituality that definitely calls for honesty - soft, pure, gentle language doesn't always fit the cause. What good is a response or reply without truth or honesty? I understand that you feel others may find you constantly negative. Have you ever considered that what you are up against calls for a similar response? Unless, of course, you awaken each morn grumpy and gloomy and continue that way throughout your day. That can't be the case because you have people who want to be in your company who genuinely smile, correct? I enjoyed reading this piece very much!

[Pax]

You've seen the lines in between....i guess poeple who try to understand me doesn't really get the picture... and end up me being in the lose end... then i just let it be... sleep and forget to move on... just another step into the harsh reality... thank you so much... I really appreciate your thoughts about the matter...

[TTBoy28]

It's really a pleasure! I've been there...as you can tell!

[Marie]

You are right not to hurt people; after all, you dn't want to be hurt. But you should definitely work on the practicl side of your nature. The world is not a kind place, and you must stand up on your feet not down on them.

[Pax]

Thank you Marie...the world is indeed a harsh place... that's reality... i kinda hate that side of life... but we learned to lived with it... thank you again...your words means so much...