it keeps me sane.

 

Living in this world, often times I feel - claustrophobic.

Living inside their system, often times I feel - restrained.

Living inside a shell, often times I feel so - distant.

 

Watching my world slowly collapsing.

Watching my reality in slow motion, pretending.

Watching my fantasy more than what’s real, it keeps me sane.

Author's Note

Sorry If I am not around much, I feel some gray road test yet again in my mind.

Sometimes when I feel like my emotions is eating me up and my mind is at constant wonder, I can't write or even concentrate. Sometimes I just lose myself into games and videos - watching, never minding about anything else. Just think about that world I am in the moment – seeing, working my mind to ease some negative emotions. Even though some people may think, laying around doing lazy things. Actually I don’t like doing nothing. I want my mind to always work and always think perhaps because I just don’t want think of reality too much. To avoid the things I don’t want to face, or afraid to face. I always mention in my poems about this door that I fear. Someday I’ll be able to open that, someday…

To all that read my work, thank you.
I may not able to return the feedback as much a possible - but I will as soon as I able again. I truly appreciate to those people who always came by and understand, it means so much to me.

Reviews

[Androglossia]

More often than not, we tend to make our own surreal world to escape from what's real. But we always go back from where we came from - reality. The more we run away from it, the lesser opportunity we'll get in planning strategies of manipulating the so called reality. We don't have a choice. It's all or nothing. This piece shows the weaker part of a person in general yet the main theme is what attracts the reader. Well done!

[asdarkeyesclose]

to succeed in life we have to be strong and resilient, the sensitive people can easily get swallowed up by a world that can seem very cold and unfriendly. i love that your brave enough to bare your soul, to face truths that are not easy to face and admit that sometimes it is all too much and you just want to hide away. i feel that way sometimes too. fantastic.

[Sibling]

I am the person you described in your author's note,
Yet the polar opposite in terms of how you expressed that through your poem. I wrote SuperNOVA from a similar situation
But its amazing how we have different perspectives of the same picture,and yours is certainly more precise and exact.
I like the directness of your expression.

Good luck with the mild ADD and partial bipolar :p

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i understand this...the fantasy is better than the reality...because these days, reality is collapsing all around us.

i like the repetition and how it works so well here.

[gabrielle]

You have that emotive way of releasing your feelings, doubts and worries, pax. no doubt about that. on your author's note- i could see myself in your situation. sometimes we are prolonging our agony for fear of the unknown. we don't know what would be the consequences of our action or the reality of our actions unless we tried, isn't it? the more we delay doing things the more it would consume us. nawala na naman ang romantic side. =)

[Dhaye]

LOL. Kakantahan muna kita: "Today I feel like doing anything...nothing at all"---Bruno Mars

Just do what makes you Sane, Bro. We all go through such stage...and we need different ways of healing.
Just don't forget we are all here for you.

Keep going.