emotions sickness

Gravity, Gravity, Gravity pulls me away,

Heading, Heading, Heading towards uncertain ways.

Answers are distance apart, too weary worry.

 

Leave me be, emotions sickness.

You are my pure weakness.

 

The hologram memories,

Bleeds haunting entries,

Triggered by many entities.

 

Sometimes it’s just too much

   with just one touch,

Cravings comes in a rush,

   fragile heart being crush.

 

Knowing you, I must arise

   in the dawn of sunrise.

I raise my hope to be able to cope,

to stop the lasting loop of this urging dope.

Author's Note

Just to be clear it was never really about addiction on drugs – it can be anything, part of your emotions like over possessiveness on love, food or just anything you could think off. It started as a word play on gravity, but it goes differently when I write introspectively.

As part of being human, I guess we all go through certain addiction to something. knowing this takes a lot of control, hope and faith to survive.

i can't find any picture that would fit with this poem so i just put the picture of my cat back at home, its blackie on redlight.

takes me weeks to finally finish this, now finally being able to share this with you...
thanks for reading :)

Reviews

[NeiL ArandA]

This is indeed very deep Pax. Its almost hard for me to penetrate. Your piece is open though for any application that suits our present predicament. Wow there are so many faces of addiction. And often times we rise early in the morning to numb that or to have a quick fix. It could be an inner struggle of will and mind. To give in or not to give in. I knew a person that has been addicted to cigarettes and the cravings for nicotine overpower his will to quit. It took 3 heart attacks and an angioplasty before he found the strength to let go. I knew a person that was addicted to alcohol that completely ruined his career, marriage and lost everything. Including his own reputation and respect. I can go on and on and on. Its just way too many to name them all.

I'm not sure if there's such thing as addicted to love . This is something that I really need to have. Do you know that it has been predicted that in the last days. The period that we are now. The love of many will grow cold ? This love is towards God and our fellow men. Even the elect (christians) fall under this dire warnings. But its been happening and sometimes hides under the guise of " indifference " . The model of love which the New Testament Church exemplified were lost in this generation. Can we love someone or somebody too much that it could be addictive ? I believe the only person that can really do this is the true LOVER of our soul. And He is still and always passionate about us. And He still and always pursue us like a passionate lover. When we are addicted to something other than true LOVER of our soul. We are settling for less and cheap imitation. For the LOVER of our soul purposely designed and fashion our heart to have a void and space that He alone can truly fill. We settle for less when we try to fill this hole and void with things and stuffs and whatever it may be other than Him. But its not a permanent fix but only temporary patch.And we go on and crave and crave for more ...and we never truly get satisfied. Not only that He is the LOVER... He's also the Satisfier of our heart's desire. These are healthy desires that He poured and lavish us. And there's no bondage but total freedom under His care. And once we tasted this love or His love. Its not only addicting but contaminating. And it touch and affect anyone or anybody that it comes in contact with. Would you resist such an addiction ? I don't know if there's even a cure for that once you've been bitten or hooked !

Pax thanks again for penning such a thought provoking piece. I saw that you poured your heart and soul on this one and appreciate you sharing it with us. Hope you will find the right picture but the cat pics is already perfect for me. Have a bless day my friend.

[Marie]

I think people can be addicted to love--I mean the sensation of "falling in love". And they're always disappointed when it doesn't remain the same feeling. Human beings are a restless, unsatisfied lot...always searhing...

[Tai Ryens]

I hadn't anticipated drugs until you mentioned it within your note, really, but I certainly captured the concept of a cycle going on and on, a cycle of lively highs countered by drudging lows accompanied by the longing and then the relapsing back into what I originally thought of as a pattern of emotional caprice. This cycle, however, was broken by a superior aspect added into the equation: love. In a way, love became your addiction and replaced the drug use.
Except for the fact that you mentioned it, I would have never anticipated drug use; only a heart in need of mending and a girl unwilling to mend your heart herself, but rather urge you to help yourself. Well done, I liked the concept of this.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

love is an addiction...i never thought of drugs here, really...

i felt a heart needing a fix...but she is gone and this heart is in withdrawal.

[Glen Yumang Manese]

Noted...on your author's note...
I believe your last word was to keep the rhyme...
and flow of the entire read...
you've seem to be experimenting a bit...
in the last few I've read of yours...
the beginning of this sets this in...
for the reader...with the repeating words...
I at times get too into the technical part of the verse...
and then -reread again to get the effectiveness...
of the whole write...
As you say addiction is an everyday aspect of recovery...
and indeed that's a task within itself...
fro those that have a problem...with whatever the pollutant....
may be in their life...
and seeks help and understanding...
in finding themselves and sustaining a normal presence...
each and everyday...